Next Evolution

I try to read the daily devotion each day before work. I don’t always get to it but when I do, it seems that it’s just for me.

So here is todays word from Bob Gass Ministries.

“THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN SUFFERETH VIOLENCE…THE VIOLENT TAKE IT BY FORCE.” MATTHEW 11:12
11.29.05

Your “ites”

Sometimes we think God’s like Santa Claus; if we just sit and wait He’ll drop His blessings into our lap without any effort on our part. No. The Bible says, “the violent take it by force.” Sometimes to get what you want from God you have to get down into trenches, grab hold of His promises and resist the enemy’s advances in your life. Even when you’re in the right area to succeed, unless you become proactive it may never be yours. Before Israel could inhabit the Promised Land they had to fight the Canaanites, the Hittites, and other “ites.” So, you’ve got to fight your “ites,” if you’re going to enjoy your rights!

We’re so used to thinking in terms of the “sweet by-and-by” that we’ve come to believe God’s blessings are reserved for heaven. Wrong! God didn’t tell the Israelites they’d inherit the Promised Land after they died. But they had to fight for it! There were 31 kings and 7 nations that had to be conquered before they could move in and possess it. And they had to be dealt with one by one. Are you getting the idea?

It’s not enough to be strong in faith, you must be strong in fight! The enemy’s strongholds in your life must be pulled down. Your “ites” must be dealt with! God will give you the strategy and the weapons. He’ll even empower you, but you’ve got to fight for your inheritance! Plus - what you become in the process is often more valuable than what you gain on the other side of it!
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Good word for today.
Rememinder to me: Thou shalt not covet they neighbors boyfriend! Whoosaaaaaaaaaaah. Let the chuch say yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaah.

Movin on.

I will get my soci paper done. I will get my soci paper done. I will get my soci paper done. I will get my soci paper done. Ok. I think ya’ll get the point. I’m tryin to motivate myself. Sheesh. My brain has shut down and it’s not good. I still got finals. Booooooooooooo.

Well, I gotta get my soci paper done.

Serenity

Nov. 28th 10:13pm

This post is probably out of sleepiness but I can’t help wonder why I’m not in a relationship?
I’ve matured, I’ve gone through an incredible emotionally healing journey, I’m workin on my health, I have a much closer relationship with God. I’ve forgiven my father *this is key ladies* I just wonder sometimes.

My mom says that he’s out there and it’s all in God’s timing. And errybody know what God’s time is not like man’s.

I hear people say “pray for him. ask God for what you want specifically. etc etc.” I understand this and that’s good an all but can one of these brothas have the cojones to speak. Dude, I see you watchin…just speak! I don’t bite! I guess it’s the fro. I dunno. I guess when one does, that’ll be a sign.

ugggh. I’m not even makin sense to me.

Arrgh. It’s like I’ll be walkin along my merry way and I walk head up, shoulders squared. I walk like I belong…most of the time. I do admit that I wear a mask somtimes but heck it’s downtown, you never know who’s gonna try to run up on you! I like to look people in the eyes. I guess this unnerves some people. Maybe that will be another test. He’ll be able to look me in the eye. Hmm dunno.

There was one guy on campus. I could sworn he was THE ONE. I could sense him and errythang. He went to my church. I could tell he was liked on campus. yadda yadda. But one lil ole problem..he had a girlfriend ’scuse me’ still has a girlfriend. I saw him the other day and spoke and when I looked in his eyes, there was somethin different. I don’t know what may have happended but he ain’t the same person or maybe I’M not the same person. That realization just hit me as I was typin that sentence. Wow, I’M not the same person I was a year ago. It’s great and yet unsettling…if that’s even possible. It’s like I can choose to continue to grow and evolve or I can slip back into where I was. I must hold on strong to my future.

Anywho, maybe the whole point of this is that I need wait and pray. I’m not to hot on that whole “kiss a bunch of frogs til I find prince charming” not a good look for me.

Lawd I just reread all of what I wrote and CLEARLY I’m divided within myself *wonders never cease* I think that is the dichotomy we all live with. The struggle between the spirit and the flesh. Spiritually I want to wait on the one God will place in my life. Physically I’m starting to forget what a kiss feels like, I want somebody to snuggle up with since it’s getting cold, I want someone to tell me I’m pretty b/c I believe it now. *sigh* All in God’s timing. Patience is truly a virtue.

Serenity