12/8/05 1pm
If I was layin in a ditch on the side of the road and she was the ONLY one I could call…I’d die!
I love my family. There is no greater feeling in the world than knowing your family has got your back. I’m talkin- drivetoN.C.inaheartbeatreadytobeataniggadownandnojurywillconvictme - got yo back kinda way. Yes that almost happened and yes we gully!
But at times it’s hard to seperate the “whole familiness” from the individual family member…I don’t think I’m makin sense. See, as a whole entity, yo family got yo back BUT yo cuz J.J. is just straight up sometimey. And that’s ok because that’s J.J and you knew that from the get go.
Ya’ll *shakin head* I done found my cuz J.J. *not literally but I’m not gone put her on blast..but I could since she doesn’t know this exists..hmmm*
*wavy lines* About two years ago, I found a cousin of mine at my college. We hooked up and hit it off. In the beginning, all is gravy, but of course as a friendship progresses, people will undoubtedly show dey ass. *back to reality*
sidenote: lawd, this lady is veteran of the library but she shole do be meddlin in my job! Takin stuff off the shelf I work with and then askin me what happened. Goodness! I let it slide cause she’s old and aloof! But I’mma have to keep both eyes on her at all times. :end sidenote
This dear cousin of mine is indecisive and it irks the heck outta me! There are several subcategories to indecisiveness but clearly I don’t have the time for all that.
What I’m coming to realize is that if I was layin in a ditch on the side of the road and she was the ONLY one I could call…I’d die. Plain and simple. And then she’d return my call right before the funeral. Just sometimey.
Now don’t get me wrong, I enjoy her company *when I’ve had enough sleep* And she’s fun to be around and go do stuff with. And I get to escape to her apartment..when I can get in touch with her. BUT she’s just one of those people that you just don’t invest much serious time into to. Sad but true.
Oh and another thing that irks me is that she’ll have dudes tryin to be her one&only and she’ll treat them like crap. Now some deserve it but others are nice guys that have probably been scarred due to what she puts them through. It’s like I can see this negro going “ok. I’mma try one more time with her and if it doesn’t work out with her then I’mma be a playa for life. F’ dem hoes!” *shakin head* Sad but what *say it with me* TRUE!
I believe that’s all I have to say about that! She fam but she’s a person too. And people have issues and you have to decide whether that person&their issues are worth your time. I don’t think I’ll disassociate with her b/c when it comes down to it…she fam but I shole nuff won’t put my life in her hands.
And that’s a wrap.
Serenity
edit: lawd hab mercy. My office is having a dessert party to mark the end of the semester! don’t they know I’m tryin to lose weight! don’t they care! *I just had a slice of my coworkers pound cake and just about died from the light fluffly moist deliciousness* lawd hab mercy and hold my mule :end edit
umm another edit: Why am I sitting here pretending to work? I have 55min left in this joint and I’m ret-ta-go! My mind is completely somewhere else. I’m thinkin bout the soci final I got tomorrow and how I don’t have my “sometimey” cuz’s half of the study guide…clearly. Also I’m thinkin bout how I’dda like to have had that earlier cause I’m focusin more on my accounting, which is on sat mornin. Clear-ly. *why does this brownie taste funny? oh well, didn’t need it anyway* :finally end edit …I’m promise I’m done…bye 
