Next Evolution

Love, Life, EpiphanyMarch 27, 2006 7:05 pm

When I moved to this space *formerly a blogspot gal*, I was tryin to think of a blog name that was representative of the next level of growth in my life. That’s where nextevolution came from, then I was like well, people sign off using names so I thought of the ONE thing that I strive for and the ONE prayer that soothes my soul like no other. SERENITY. I’m talkin an instant peace that everything will be OK if I remember Whose I am and Who runs my life.

Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time, accepting hardship as a pathway to peace.
Taking as Jesus did this sinful world, as it is, not as I would have it.
Trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will.
So that I may reasonably happy in this life and superemely happy with You forever in the next.
Amen

Lord knows I don’t always remember to say this in times of crisis. We often just push what we know to the back of our minds and act purely out of emotion. But I, myself, am learning to Respond..not react to life, and it feels good. Ya see, to me a Response is something that is well thought out, it takes a minute to formulate what you’d like to say and then you share that with the world. To me a reaction is a highly emotional, split second decision that could or could not have profound consequences.

I talked with my cousin this weekend. People sometimes don’t know that in the midst of what they’re going through, God is using them. I got to talk to her about a program I worked and in talkin to her, I was reminded of the things I’d learned and put on the back burner. The serenity prayer was one of those things, I need to get back to reciting that daily…it centers me. Here I am stressing over accounting when I need to calm down, give it to God, and ask for understanding of what I’m studying.

I am often in awe of God’s power. Did you know that He knows every decision you’re going to make, every direction of life you were going to choose, every desire of your heart..yes even the ones you wisper in the midnight hour and whether that be good or bad, He loves and is there for you inspite of? That’s unconditional love, grace and mercy and I’m thankful. I’m thankful because as mere mortals we will mess up, we will fall short but to know that you can get up and that Daddy will wrap His arms around you and bring you back in. It’s a wonder.

Umm. Bout to have church up in here! Lol.
Lemme get back to work.

Serenity—forever striving.

Love, LifeMarch 22, 2006 3:12 pm

I attended an “Evening with Maya Angelou” on Monday and this poem struck me. It described women of color as delicous and sweet. Good stuff!

Harlem Sweeties
by Langston Hughes

Have you dug the spill
Of Sugar Hill?
Cast your gims
On this sepia thrill:
Brown sugar lassie,
Caramel treat,
Honey-gold baby
Sweet enough to eat.
Peach-skinned girlie,
Coffee and cream,
Chocolate darling
Out of a dream.
Walnut tinted
Or cocoa brown,
Pomegranate-lipped
Pride of the town.
Rich cream-colored
To plum-tinted black,
Feminine sweetness
In Harlem’s no lack.
Glow of the quince
To blush of the rose.
Persimmon bronze
To cinnamon toes.
Blackberry cordial,
Virginia Dare wine—
All those sweet colors
Flavor Harlem of mine!
Walnut or cocoa,
Let me repeat:
Caramel, brown sugar,
A chocolate treat.
Molasses taffy,
Coffee and cream,
Licorice, clove, cinnamon
To a honey-brown dream.
Ginger, wine-gold,
Persimmon, blackberry,
All through the spectrum
Harlem girls vary—
So if you want to know beauty’s
Rainbow-sweet thrill,
Stroll down luscious,
Delicious, fine Sugar Hill.

Serenity

Life, FamilyMarch 20, 2006 4:32 pm

[Caution: Grammer used in this posting is atrocious and will not be edited due to length. Thanks and have a nice day]

Sweatshops…why do I feel like I’m working in one!
Well, before spring break I went by my old job and they mentioned they had some filing they needed done. I thought “well, I’m not going anywhere for spring break so I can make some extra money!”. I called the owner, and he said he could use me. I also had alterior motives because this is the line of business I’d like to eventually enter.

*le sigh* Come to find out that this is filing that they are TWO years behind on. I’m talking about major inventory missing which means major money owed. First of all, all of this filing is paper contracts. He has not invested in a computer…which we told his cheap ass he needed when the business started growing. So we’re dealing with these handwritten carbon copies *people write sloppy these days*. They have what we called a Return Form *for when people turn the instruments back in* and an Upgrade/Exchange Form *for when people trade in a clarinet for a tuba or an old clarinet for a newer clarinet*. Say John Doe returned a Tuba in 2005, we must look in the 2002, 2003, 2004 and 2005 NOTEBOOKS (that’s stuffed to capacity and rarely alphabetized) for John Doe’s contract and then staple the Return to it, to show that the contract is closed. It’s even more complicated for the Upgrade/Exchanges. The reason we’re doing all this is because they didn’t keep up with it as they went along. They just let it pile up til it couldn’t be fixed. The reason it piled up is because nobody likes doing paperwork and as much as they have, it is a full time position, but the owner is too cheap to hire anybody. ATTENTION: If you are a future business owner, cutting corners is good in some areas, like off brand toilet tissue, BUT when it comes to having enough employees for all facets of your business, having a computerized inventory system *which is usually linked to the cash register*, and having an accountant to do payroll, DO NOT CUT CORNERS. It WILL bite you in da azz. The owner had us looking for missing instruments last saturday and off of a 3pg one sided document, he was missing $103,000 in instruments. Meaning he owned VIR for that amount. Two words: inventory system.

*R U still there, I kinda went on a rant there…annnywhoo*

Anyway, me and my fellow coworker were like, this is frustrating cause they will leave off the serial number or what type of instrument. We keep finding Returns stuck in the book with no original contract. You can’t read people’s handwriting etc etc. Basically we didn’t know what we signed up for. We thought it was short term gig, nope, they wanted to know when we could come in during the week, I was like nooooosiiiirrr I will see you for 4hrs on saturdays! *le sigh* Then the owner had the nerve to complain about the length of our lunch after we’ve been sitting in the back, in the cold *he’ll turn up the heat only when he comes and asks if we’re cold*, with a radio I brought as the only thing to keep our mind going and you complain cause we were gone 45min for lunch and told us we could only take 30min….oh I got you! I’m moving slow as molasses from now on. We were already tryin to decide if all this work was worth $7/hr or for me $56 a paycheck…shoot that’s just getting my hair done at the Natural Hair Shop. He lucky I’m not a person who likes to quit, he’s also lucky I may need him for an internship. Lucky bastid….yes, I’m a lil heated.

Moving on..
Needy Aunts. Jesus wept! Now this probably wouldn’t bother me as much if she called when she DIDN’T need something. *shakin head* This is my aunt on my daddy’s side. She and her husband are very career focused and sometimes their children slip through the cracks. Their kids are going to have HIGH therapist bills…that’s a fact. Anyway, my aunt accepted a job in Alabama for higher pay and my uncle is always traveling with his job, so whenever they are both gone they call me. That’s cool but it’s become a bit much this month. I kept them 3days earlier this month, I was carrying them kids everywhere, that’s hard on gas and patience. Then she needs me to pick them up tomorrow and was tryin to get me to get them Friday too, I said no to that…at least I think I did, well I will say no if she brings it up. THEN the last week of march I will be at their house ALL WEEK, takin them to school and pickin them up and running them to this practice and that. I’m not lookin forward it but I do this for 3 reasons: 1. she really doesn’t have anyone else 2. Heck, they are my lil cousins and they are moving away this summer 3. She does pay pretty well. What I need to work out is how I’m going to study for my second midterm at her house. Hmmmmm….

Cool Mom’s…
My mommie is so cool. She was on the phone with my grandma saying that she was going to try to come down during her spring break, but she had to check with me and see what I’m up to. My lil ears perked all the way up because my friend happens to stay where we’re going. So I asked when she was trying to go and she said the weekend at the end of her break. I said cool but you know I have alterior motives right? She said yep, you gotta see ya man! Then I asked her if she was going to help me see him without all the family in my business and she said she would. Now that makes her the coolest mom in the world. See, my family, lawd love ‘em, is kinda nosey. Not in a bad way but in a “we’re concerned about what you do and want to make sure you’re stayin on the straight and narrow”. It can be annoying cause one may find out and then by the end of the day, the whole family knows and you will start to get the “Gwyn Round of Calls”…GRC for short! My mom was like “you don’t need to subject him to the spanish inquisition!” I agreed wholeheartedly cause it’s not like I’m marrying him…just a date…goodness! She so cool!

I think I’m done….yep, nothin else rattling around in my brain.

Serenity